Me, Guilt, and the Eight of Swords

I’ve been feeling a lot of guilt lately. Guilt at not being a productive business owner. Guilt at not being a supportive partner. Guilt at not being a diligent student. Guilt at not living and eating as healthily as I could. Guilt at not better communicating with family and friends. Guilt at not allowing myself to rise above my excuses.

 

Worst of all, I’ve been feeling guilty for feeling guilty. swords08You know the 8 of Swords? That’s how i feel; trapped and confined by problems and errors of my own doing. I can see the way out but for one reason or another won’t work to make myself better. I allow myself to wallow in my guilt and fear instead of pushing through and correcting what I know is wrong.

But why? Why the confines? Why the need to hold myself hostage?

I wish I knew the answer 100%, but I have a strong feeling it has to do with fear.

Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of leaving my comfort zone. Fear of dealing with an outcome other than what I envisioned.

It’s easier to trod along as is than risk failure or uncertain end results. What’s if I’m not good enough? What if there are people better than me? What’s the point if I can’t be the best?

Have you ever felt this way?

These mindsets are detrimental to happiness, and if we’re going to manifest the life we want, the life we NEED, we need to overcome our fears, our self-doubts, and our guilt and rise above. This is easier said than done, trust me. But, acknowledging these feelings is the first step in resolving them, and if you’re able to admit the problem then you’re ready and able to begin solving it.

I know what I have to do to better myself and better my life. So this is a promise to you and to ME that I will do everything I can to give you the best version of me that I can.

No more fear. No more guilt.

Happiness is the name of the game.